Looking back at 2018, it’s hard to say whether my year went good or whether it went down the soil.
For starters, I realized, I wasn’t able to publish a single book this year.
2015 – published one book – “GREAT”
2016 – published two 300+ pages books in one go – “SUPERB” and that too while completing my last year in the undergrads
2017 – published one book of 400+ pages – “STILL COOL”
2018 – NOTHING……
I really can’t fathom what really went wrong with me in 2018, I honestly can’t.
Was it because I got my first full time job at an NGO and got a heavy doses of regrets into understanding how NGO Finance Officers are practically tied up to the constraints of their donor’s budget?
Was it because I failed to show up a girl’s profile over whom both of my parents would agree and finally allow me to get married which ultimately led me into rejecting a total of 7 marriage proposals?
Was it because of trying to figure out how to balance my MBA studies with my strenuous work life?
Was it because of me turning lazy? LOL, even my parents are scared of calling me lazy.
Was it because of me inducing towards depression over not getting to be an accomplished writer? That may be the answer.
Only Allah knows the answer whatever the reason may turn out to be
Anyways let’s talk about some good stuffs from 2018-
1. I got to travel overseas on my own for the first time. For a person coming from a serious set of pro-level overprotective parents, I think this is indeed a big achievement.
2. The Weekly Khutbah’s popularity has soared up tremendously. In fact, it’s total number of views have doubled from that of 2017. For a blog which has only produced 8 articles- just 8 articles in the last 365 days, I feel like, I don’t know… how powerful this blog can truly turn out to be irrespective of its author not valuing it properly. In fact, that times, I felt turning down all of my blogs, supposing that I haven’t accomplished much in my life but when I set my eyes upon the statistics and wonder in awe how much this rather dormant blog means so much to so many people around the world, I feel ashamed over my own thoughts.
Stats of The Weekly Khutbah
3. Though my other blogs haven’t accomplished well as The Weekly Khutbah, I feel like they will be catching up if I choose to be more ardent towards them as well.
4. I received 7 marriage proposals this year 6 of whom were with stunning looks, I sincerely apologize to that sole one with average looks, LOL. Though I had to turn them down which eventually led the girls either blocking me or cutting contact with me completely but it doesn’t feel bad if you keep on receiving them and you reject them in the Islamic fashion, double LOL to that one. Furthermore, 2 more marriage proposals are currently at work-in-process. Trust me, it’s not a joke. Do pray that I get a glimmer of hope this time from my parents at least.
5. I got a new job which I will be, In Shaa Allah, joining tomorrow. The first thing they asked me was to introduce me over which I replied, “Google my name and you will find out about me.” They initially got confused and thought it to be a joke. But they actually Googled my name and found my author profile. Appreciating my boldness and talent giving credit to my fancy name as well, I ended up getting the job, Alhammdulillah.
So even if I didn’t end up publishing anything this year, it’s wasn’t as bad as I initially thought it to be. It’s all about perspective and how you view your life to be.
Happy New Year Everyone!